Sorry, about my outburst. I read the comments by far. And I appreciate the advice. But..I must say something about this certain topic.

Peer Pressure is a natural reaction that we all go through. School, Family, Work, etc. Well, I had a talk with my father when he got home from dialysis. He told me his real reason for his reaction. He told me things I never thought he would say. He told me his problems. He was feeling really pressured. Trying to keep the family together. Keeping the house clean and doing what he can for the family. When he told me about mother...and the things she's been doing. I was heart broken. After hearing what he said...I felt crushed completely. All the things mother is doing...ignoring me, Jan, and Aubrey...I feel she only cares about herself only. And not showing love towards my father...I feel...I have no mother.

So yeah...peer pressure is what I've been going through. I was sent home early from my job because I was having a major breakdown. Tomorrow, my and my older brother are going to search for an apartment so we can save up to move out. I'm sorry for my selfish reaction. I was emotionally angry and upset. I'm ok now...but I feel so lonely.

Sometimes I feel. Like a motherless child. A long way from home.